Amazed

I still am just in awe.  Amazed that God would bless me like He has.  I have a handsome Christian husband who loves me and is crazy about our son.  Rocco is such a miracle.  He came along ten years into our marriage - all the way from Vietnam.  You'll never meet a cuter, smarter kid anywhere.  I'm convinced God gave us the best when He blessed us with our little boy.  He brings so much joy into our lives.  And to know that God loves me enough to give me salvation - it just blows me away. 

But add to all this that God would reach down and open my barren womb after years of infertility.  I'm still in awe that God would answer my prayer.  I had faith that He could do it - I just didn't know if He would...if it was in His plan.  So when I found out Aug. 3rd that I was pregnant, I had this overwhelming thankfulness in my heart.  How could I possibly thank God for this gift?  For all the gifts He had given me.  But to know that I had this little life growing inside of me.  It really was a lot to take in.

I knew this was one of many miracles that could have only come from God.  He brought me through open heart surgery 11 years ago.  He made me a mother with the miracle of Rocco 4 1/2 years ago.  And now He was going to allow me to know what a pregnancy was like.  To give birth to a child. 

Today I'm 19 weeks pregnant, and I still can't believe it.  Some times I just look at my belly and smile.  Today I called Jason and said, "I've got some good news.. . . I'm pregnant!"  We both just laughed.  I really still cannot get over the fact that I really am.

I just stand in awe of God.  At how merciful and kind He is to us.  At night as I lie in bed I smile as I wrap my arms around the baby beside me (Rocco) and realize I have another baby inside me. I'm doubly blessed.